Down Down, Deeper and Down

Things are generally going pretty well in life just now. Lachlan is heading towards his 15th birthday this week, we have new neighbours who seem lovely… work is going way better than anticipated just a few weeks ago… and we are off on an adventure with my oldest friend in the very near future. Yet I have that hollowed out feeling inside… and I don’t really know why. Well… I kinda know… but I am not sure if that is it, or it could just be some inbalance in my system. There is also the ever present guilt that I live with - honestly - I could give the most lapsed Catholic a run for their money on the guilt front and that is always there, along with my own and many shortcomings that niggle away at my mind - last night was a particularly niggly night so sleep was disturbed.

Usually when these moments come along I can break through with a little creativity injected into my day to day existance. That can come from any of the arts really - it stimulates my brain a wee bit. I quite often used to write songs at these times, but I no longer have a band so I no longer have a drive to write. Perhaps I should get back in to that again… if I ever find time! Now it tends to come from landscape photography and darkroom work, but finding time on either front has been a little difficult of late as paying work has taken over! That said - I am finding quite a creative outlet in the videography side of that process, probably because it is quite new skillset and I am still developing it, which is fun (property photography can be creative too - it really depends on what the property itself offers as to how creative I can get with it!)

Anyway, tomorrow I am off to the West Coast to the delightfully named “Big Sands”, an area around Gairloch which I do like - so I am hoping for some opportunity to explore the creative side of my photography. I have spotted an old fishing station on the map so that may be a good place to start!

10th May 2026