Hanging Myself

No, not like that. Today was the hanging of this years Inverness Darkroom Exhibition at Eden Court which will take pride of place on the first floor for the next month. I managed to print up a couple of panoramics last night on my inkjet so have something to show for myself, which was not looking likely earlier yesterday. They came out okay - and as my backup backup print (hand printed on fibre based paper last Monday) was on hand I could compare the tonality of my handmade, but small, print against my digital print and - it was close. The hand print is really near my vision now, so much so that next time I book a dark room session I want to run a few more small versions just to nail the process that final percent and then run the first BIG hand made print! I need to get to grips with selenium finishing first though so that the thing has longevity! This may also become the first finished piece for my next professional panel….

Otherwise it’s been a busy weekend of admin, looking after the boys as Jen is away and preparing for our trip next weekend. I am also battling those damn black dogs again tonight as I am feeling very much disconnected from everyone. Will I do anything about it… probably not. I honestly don’t feel that most people are all that fussed so I may as well hide away in my own wee shell and have outbursts of seeming sociability just so I don’t completely fade out.

I don’t suspect anyone reads much of my drivel anymore. It was all really for two people after we lost my Mum, and both of them have sadly departed now too… it’s really just for me now, to remind myself that I am still here! It’s not so much feeling sorry for myself, maybe there is a little of that… it’s not a big thing though. I just miss those whom have gone and I miss the folk I used to spend time with whose lives have taken entirely different trajectories to my own. There is a little self pitty/loathing involved because I just feel that I have been burned too many times to bother putting myself out adn trying to build a new social circle. Too often we find that nobody really gives that much of a damn about anyone else so the burning happens over and over again until we decide that enough is enough and insulate ourselves from the wider world.

Anyway - today’s photo is below.

30th May 2026