Down Down Deeper and DOwn

I don’t really know why, but I am in a bit of a fug. I think it is a complete lack of social life, constantly being “on call” for various things and not really getting a great deal of “me” time. Ever. The thing which, I think, is getting to me is that there is basically nothing I can do to change the situation. This is life. Just deal with it. I don’t really have any opportunity to form freindships or bonds with anyone, and I don’t see friends from elsewhere for various reasons… so it’s kinda feeling a wee bit lonely.

At least the cats talk to me. And the chickens tolerate me. Sometimes.

18th July 2026

I am okay really… just feeling a little like I have the weight of the World on my shoulders and nobody to really talk to about anything… or go for a pint with and forget about it all for a bit. But this has been the situation for a long while, so why it is on my mind at the moment I really don’t know!